Why am I still here?

Am writing a post after really long. Had written few drafts on interesting development on web design, HTML 5 and CSS3, but they remained just drafts due to my bad health and too many things going on in my life and my mind.

There are very few people who read this blog few of them being my close friends and clients and rest people from my industry who end up on this site from search engines.

Am currently in a very calm state of mind hence thinking very clearly after very long time. Maybe thinking so clearly for first time.

This is would be a very honest attempt from me to write down that too on my blog.
I had quit my Architecture studies since I could not wait any longer to start my business. I loved Architecture and still love. It would remain my life long passion. I still justify my decision of leaving studies and never regret the decision. But I have started regretting what I did after that.

Unlike many other people, I was never a practical person. I was not afraid to dream bigger than my means or skills. I am overly optimistic person. All this has still not changed. I still think the same.

The only realization I have had, is that achieving my impossible dreams which some would laugh at is still possible for many using my plans but they are not possible to achieve by me.
Am just built differently and weirdly. I sometimes consider myself a loser sometimes I dont. Whatever I think of myself, am still in a loser category by world’s standards.
For me to achieve my own dreams, I would have to break myself, and rebuild myself into something new. I might lose who I truly am in the process, but it dosent matter anymore. The only thing that matters to have always been my dreams, and to make them true, I have to change myself now.

I have written this, to first accept am a loser, and then to have this as a reminder to come back to this every week to see if am same or changing.

I dont believe in luck, but I do wish myself all the good luck!

Logo Ideas

Hello,

I had not been well since last 2 weeks, so no posts. Also, since my bookmarks in Firefox has gone beyond managing, I finally would type in information about nice websites here in my blog, which would help me search them in future, and also other information which I might forget later on.

So for today, here is this link –>http://www.underconsideration.com/speakup/archives/003536.html

It has information on some unused logo designs, and their analysis at the end in the best possible way I have seen. I would do something like this in my free time.

Now, I am going back to work, as my 5 min’s, break is over.

My 3rd KYOB

KYOB – That’s short for Kick Your Own Butt

In freelancing this is very much required. I must be among few freelancers, offering so many services. Few days back I posted reviews on Chetan Bhagat’s 3rd book “the 3 mistakes of my life” but now my mistakes have kicked my butt.

I sometimes get over confident and plan enough. Secondly I trust people too fast and lastly It takes me great deal of KYOB to realize my mistakes.

No matter how expert you think you are, in business when you depend on another person to work with you in getting things done, there is always a big risk. I have been working with a company, which provided me programmers on a on-demand basis. I was not paying not high, but enough for a decent service. But the programmers, I guess they are the once using all the logic, but most I have known in my life, barely use logic in making a decision. Result of 2 programmers screwing up, project getting delayed, client getting super tensed and at the end, me losing money, client losing time and money both.

I wanted to expand, and this blow was on the right time, to make me realize who I work with and who I depend upon. I am creating all my plans from scratch again, and restarting every step I have taken so far in my business, to offer my client’s what I wanted to when I started my business.

As I have made more loss than I could handle from a single project, I first have to find smaller work to get money. While I do that, I would also start re-creating my plans and prices and last options to get a work done in case something bad happens. My loses have gone too high, for a person like me to manage. But more than loss, I learned a very important lesson.

Now, I will change everything related to me and by business from this very second.

the 3 mistakes of my life review

My rating – 5*5
Full rating, since I don’t think there is something which is perfect. The things that can make us feel something, I consider them perfect and that is what the books of Chetan Bhagat do.
As usual I regret reading the book at one go, since I wish it never ended and went on like Ekta Kapoor’s serialThis 3rd book touches the serious issues with care, but more than that, he puts you in a place, where it feels you are living his story. Well all good authors do that but I connect to these more as its about India. I hate hindi movies because of their endings, But I love Chetan’s books, because of the filmy endings. It gives a smile whether sarcastic or good on your face.

So my reviews in short, I positively liked and Loved his 3rd book as well.

Hope he lives a 100 years and writes books too often, or may be he should create a serial on TV and we can see it everyday.

My work, Chetan Bhagat and more

The last 3 months were the busiest months of my life. One deadline after the other, along with my own projects and websites to handle was just too tiring, but also exciting due to some interesting work, new ideas and many other things.

I recently launched Chetan Bhagat’s new website www.chetanbhagat.com. Though the site looks different than my first design concept’s but I like my work and so does my client. Chetan is launching his 3rd book “the 3 mistakes of my life” which no doubt would be the best seller again and would also be the biggest book launch in India so far. Chetan Bhagat is the only Indian author who has achieved more than any other author in India. His books is read by so many. I know very few people who have not head of him. And best part, putting my link on his website also gives me more than 20 visitors every day.

Before I forget, please find some links below and visit his website:

Book 3: http://www.chetanbhagat.com/the_books/t3moml/
Teaser: http://www.chetanbhagat.com/the_books/t3moml/teaser/

Excerpt & Free 1St Chapter:http://www.chetanbhagat.com/the_books/t3moml/excerpt.html

First Post of 2008

I am really very fast. I wonder How my client’s handle me. May be that I try to do too many things at a time.

Anyways, so this is my first post of 2008. What a year this is. Last year I complained about bad client’s and not work & yes also about loses in business. This year is pretty exciting. Have some great clients. One is like a more of a colleague or say friend. I get good amount of work from him.

Then I have a exciting client. He is a author, not just an author, but a famous author. His name is Chetan Bhagat, has written 2 best selling contemporary classics in India. I am working on his new website which would be launched in a week.

This year so far has been great, its like I am getting to eat fruits of the tree that I had planted last year.

I accidently deleted the background’s of this blog, but will create something new and will upload it soon. Well my soon does mean few months, but this time I will try to outdo myself.

See u later.

New LIFE!!!

Hello,

After too many mistakes, too many incidents, many friends, few great friends, few love, some of my best moments, I finally have started valuing my life more than I ever did.

I have seen many dreams, and I am very sure now is the time to go behind them with all the energy I have. I could either be broke if I don’t succeed. But I would have no regrets. The reason is, I hated the world all my life. Finally I started loving it. Many things happened in my past which made me hate everyone. But when I sit today and think of everything, it feels like a puzzle. Everything happened for a reason, and sometimes which I felt bad about then, makes me think and smile now, because those moments which I considered bad then, are in fact the best moments of my life. Life just feels great.

I hope I never find any more friends now, why?? because I want to always remember and stay in touch with the friends I made in my hostel. I want to be in that life for the rest of my life. There are so many thing sin my head which I am trying to write down, but unfortunately the best thing sin your head and the most intense feelings can never be written and spoken. They just remain in your mind and make you smile when you remember them.

All my confusions about my future are almost clear. Earlier my journey was feeling like walking in a dark room not knowing what I would bump upon. But its light everywhere now. Life feels clear and am ready to run instead of crawling and walking.

The journey am going to begin, would not be the easiest, might be the hardest but I know one thing, that it would create some more memories & some more wonderful moments, that I would be able to remember after I end my journey.

Would write back soon. Good Night.

Tommy Hilfiger insulted INDIANS.

//This is a old email which I am posting now. Once you finish reading, read the last line before reacting.


I’m sure many of you watched the recent taping of the Oprah Winfrey show in Chicago where her guest was Tommy Hilfiger. On the show, she asked him if the statements about race he was accused of saying were true.

Statements like”…”If I’d known African-Americans, Hispanics, Jewish, INDIAN and Asians would buy my clothes, I WOULD NOT have made them so nice. I wish these people would *NOT* buy my clothes, as they are made for upper class white people.”

His answer to Oprah was a simple “YES”.

Where after she immediately asked him to leave her show.

A suggestion? Don’t buy your next shirt or perfume from Tommy Hilfiger. Let him get what he asked for. Let’s not buy his clothes, let’s put him in a financial state where he himself will not be able to afford the ridiculous prices he puts on his clothes.

BOYCOTT. PLEASE SEND THIS MESSAGE TO ANYONE YOU KNOW.

If we are small, then send it to the whole community and see the result. We have to see the result of unity. Stop buying all range of Hillfiger products, perfume, cosmetics, clothes, bags etc

Save our Dignity

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OK, now all the above was a rumour.

http://www.oprah.com/tows/slide/200705/20070502/slide_20070502_350_101.jhtml

See this link for the facts. And in case you ever get any such rumours in your email do send it to me.

Prashant Tamang – The New Indian Idol 3

Hello everyone from which I mean the 2 or 3 people who sometimes visit my blog on my request and sometimes order.
I was missing from blogging for a few days, as the business had become too much and am still recovering from loses. But luckily I have a good programmers working for me, who handle the work well and giving me some peace of mind.

Well today Prashant Tamang has won and become the new Indian Idol. From everything I read about him in newspapers and seen on news, its very much clear that if he participates in his regional elections, then he would win hands down. I have read about Tea garden workers there, who earn a daily wage of Rs. 80 spending more than 50% of their money on sending SMS to vote for their Idol. If this is the craze, then definitely him winning is a nice thing, as the other finalist who lost, has a damn unique voice and would for sure become a idol himself in music industry some day soon. Best part was the healthy competition seen among them. After the results were announced, they were holding each other for a while and Prashant had tears in his eyes. But looking at them felt like Amit was not a contestant but Prashant’s brother who came there to support him. Those guys are great and I feel this time the entire 13 finalist were great.

I would get back on Monday and would write something more about my life.

a grt new day!!!

I have started to see a lot of changes in myself. I always spent time planning about my future and my business and never spent time on the way I looked and my health. But things seem to be changing for the best. I do used to work out but not regularly but from last few days I have been working out daily, and the best or the worst part is even when I am working all I can think is about working out more :).

I always give myself time to accomplish something and I have done the same this time too. I have lots of pimples on my face which have been same from last couple of years. I am going tomorrow to a skin specialist to get the cure for them and am going to spend as much as I can to get rid of them within next 3 months. I am also going to get in shape in the next 3 months as I am tired of the way I look and feel and just want to improve everything about me and my life.

Due to the above reasons I have also deleted all my accounts in social community websites so that I can spent as much time as i have on working for my business to expand it as much as I can in the next 6 months and to work out as much as I could in the coming weeks. I hope I just continue as I have planned. This time i feel lot of energy rushing into me to help me to what I wanted to do since long time.

Lets how many changes I can make in the next 3 months….