Another day over in waiting and working. My wish of getting rid of my emotions and feelings is coming true everyday. How? well torture yourself emotionally and once you have a emotional breakdown you would be more emotionally stable next time. Just the way we work out and exercise as long as our muscles are torn which again regenerate and new and stronger muscles are formed. Well life works same way.
Its always better to be sad and maintain your sadness and then later become a cold person then to have stupid emotional state of mind and mood swings. Life would had been a lot better if we were just like animals. But since its not that way, I would have to figure out something to make my life easier.
will right again tomorrow, till then good night…
My life seems to be pathetic even when I am doing better than many of other guys my age with who had as much resources as I had, still I don’t know why I am not Happy. The biggest mistake I have done in my life is to find happiness from others. My life has no timings or schedule. I got up at 2:20am and writing this blog which is enough to prove my the way my life is.
Can’t sleep now, have a slight fever, so now just wasting my time in here. I think i have to start doing some yoga or something to make peace with myself which can put me to some ease. Right now, I hope I am able to work in the morning, since I have to setup my office anyhow by July end. And I also have to re-design my website and to have a new website for the all services except design and development. And the most important task is also to increase the profits or at least the total revenue by more than 75% in these 2 months. Dammit lot of things to be done. Expansion is not a easy thing, and trying to make your dreams a reality is another dream in itself. My and my stupid thoughts.
Anyways, its already 5:38am and I have to sleep and wake up by 10:00am and finish some pending work by tomorrow morning. Till 15th I am going to finish all pending work and after that I would start new projects and also work on internal one’s. 10 days of this month are over so fast, at this speed I think I would be old and dead in no time.
Bye for now…
Another boring day over. My design work is over, and now programmers are doing their programming work on clients projects. So am free from last 2 days, well not free exactly If i want I can do some things which have to be done, but since I am not in a mood and those things are not urgent so I din do anything.
Another day of long wait for good things to happen to cheer my mood was unsuccessful. These last few days have made me think very deeply about the way I am living my life. Professional part is going the way it should a bit slow though, but at personal level its like I have nothing. One thing is that the friends I had made while in hostel(dorm) might be the last good friends I would ever have. They know me not completely but more than anyone else. The time I had spent there was the best time of my life. I don’t know about the future, I might have all things I want in future, but that time won’t be back again.
I have always wasted my life best moments, thinking about future and the end instead of enjoying the moment. There are lots of examples which I wont disclose, but am a big fool that I can say for sure.
Would write back again in few hours.
Work is almost over, now have to search something more to work. Life is boring when you depend on someone else to make you happy. Well whoever reads this blog sure would swear on me. So before I bore anyone else, I am logging out of blogger.
There was a super cyclone in Oman, and guess what an Indian died. No matter where a calamity strikes, among the dead an Indian is always there. It proves if you throw a bomb anywhere in the world Indians are surely going to die.
There are so many Indians, that no matter news of which country you read, we find Indians everywhere. This should be bad or good, I am not to judge.
Its 3:40am, still finishing some work, and waiting for someone. Am bored, if anyone who reads my blog knows any good site to read, please post its link in a comment.
Bye for now, would write back soon.
Well guys, finally I have changed the design of my blog with a more custom look. Took just 20 minutes as it was modification of a free design. I have been trying to do this since a month, but don’t get time to do extra work. But since a found a sweet person to chat with, my mood was refreshed and so i gave my blog the much needed refreshment after years.
As you may have noticed, I have been writing almost regularly from last few days, which i want to continue. I do have some other blogs on which I write about Search engine optimization and other web related stuff. Would post links of some nice articles as soon as I publish them on my other blogs.
Thats all for today, see u tomorrow.
Well i found a new friend. Again a Cancerian and a gal. God must be laughing for sure. Well anyways she is sweet and gorgeous. Wont give much of her details though.
Would right back again in the morning.
I am filled with people around me, who keep on regretting almost everything that they have ever done. But they still continue to make mistakes. I hope I don’t become like them.
Anyways this day ended before it began for me. Lots of work pending, but finally I have some intelligent people working for me who make life easier and my clients happy. I hope to have my internet problems solved soon. Past 1 month has been the most boring month in last 4 years. I was almost like a dead man walking.
Before i end this post, must say that blogger is really cool, these Google guys are doing great work. Drafts are saved automatically. Which is the best part due to my internet problems.
Anyways time for today to end. See ya soon. I hope at least someone is reading this to whom i say see ya soon, even if they don’t read my blog again.
lots happened in last few months. Business growing well but net is causing a lot of problems. I bought a new laptop which is cool and now makes me work more. Beautiful things inspire me and make me work more.
Regarding new films, I did watch Spiderman 3 which is not so good, 300 which is excellent and Shootout at lokhandwalla which is good as per bollywood standards otherwise another gangster crap.
BTW, working life is getting boring due to net problems. nothing more to say.