Am writing a post after really long. Had written few drafts on interesting development on web design, HTML 5 and CSS3, but they remained just drafts due to my bad health and too many things going on in my life and my mind.
There are very few people who read this blog few of them being my close friends and clients and rest people from my industry who end up on this site from search engines.
Am currently in a very calm state of mind hence thinking very clearly after very long time. Maybe thinking so clearly for first time.
This is would be a very honest attempt from me to write down that too on my blog.
I had quit my Architecture studies since I could not wait any longer to start my business. I loved Architecture and still love. It would remain my life long passion. I still justify my decision of leaving studies and never regret the decision. But I have started regretting what I did after that.
Unlike many other people, I was never a practical person. I was not afraid to dream bigger than my means or skills. I am overly optimistic person. All this has still not changed. I still think the same.
The only realization I have had, is that achieving my impossible dreams which some would laugh at is still possible for many using my plans but they are not possible to achieve by me.
Am just built differently and weirdly. I sometimes consider myself a loser sometimes I dont. Whatever I think of myself, am still in a loser category by world’s standards.
For me to achieve my own dreams, I would have to break myself, and rebuild myself into something new. I might lose who I truly am in the process, but it dosent matter anymore. The only thing that matters to have always been my dreams, and to make them true, I have to change myself now.
I have written this, to first accept am a loser, and then to have this as a reminder to come back to this every week to see if am same or changing.
I dont believe in luck, but I do wish myself all the good luck!2